Who I am
Location: New England
Hobbies: Art, Writing, Bitching.
Email: Email me
This is my spot to bitch about life in general. Usually, I'm a pretty happy going person, but lately that's changed. I've been dealing with a lot of personal issues and I haven't been able to talk about them on my regular blog because a lot of my personal friends read it. So I'm using this place as a place to get out all my feelings and not worry about what people say about me or think of me. Feel free to email me at any time if you want... for any reason.
It's a little dusty in here
Wow, I haven't posted in a while, sorry about that! I know all 4 of you have been sitting on the edge of your seats waiting for me to blog. haha. Well, I'm back. I've been busy but things are just starting to calm down so I should be on here more regularly. Shame on me for ignoring my poor blog.
Well, while I was gone something happened with the background and picture on my template, so pardon the appearance of this place. I gotta figure out what went wrong and where it happened. No worries.
I have been busy. I started working again, which isn't always fun... but the money I get out of it is! I've been feeling pretty good lately. I have been eating better and paying attention to my body when it says it's hungry. I've gained back some of the weight I lost too, which is good.
I bought a few books on cutting and overall mental health and I've been learning some interesting things here and there about me that I didn't know about. I am so interested in psychology now, I think I'll switch majors when I get back to school. I can stay up all night reading book after book. It's great.
Hmmm... Other than working and reading, I haven't done anything interesting. I have a few doctor appointments this week, a graduation to go to next week, as well as a concert and a road trip. I can't wait for that. I'm thinkin' that's about it. I hope all is well in your neck of the woods. Sorry I haven't emailed any of you, I swear, I didn't fall off the face of the Earth. :) Well, that's it for now. Have a good week guys!
Tisha bitched at 9:50 AM | |
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
Monday was tough. My last meeting with Katie was really nice, but it was still hard to say goodbye. After the meeting I bawled, but I was kind of happy because I told her everything that I wanted to tell her and I felt good about it.
I'm home from school now and it's been a little weird. I spent a lot of time with my boyfriend and I think we got sick of each other already, which is something that never really happens. I know it's my fault, I'm trying to adjust to being home and I'm dealing with things on my own with no real place to vent anymore, so I've just been a crappy person to be around I guess. I don't know, hopefully things will settle down a bit.
I have a lot of things to do today, I have to clean the house like its never been cleaned before... That's going to take a while so I better go start it.
Tisha bitched at 12:27 PM | |
Movin' on up
I hit rock bottom last Thursday and since then, things have started to get better. I have a better grasp on eating and I can talk myself out of doing harmful things to myself. I can now recognize when I get into one of those "moods" and do other things that will take my mind off of what I'm thinking. I've spent a lot of time away from my room and outside studying and painting, which has also helped me a lot.
Monday is the last time I get to see my counselor, which sucks. She was the first person I've talked to that I actually had a connection with. I can go in there and feel like I'm just shootin' the breeze with her while still getting things accomplished. I see her more like an older sister than a therapist. It's going to be really hard to say goodbye, but I feel good about it all because I'm in a more positive place than I was before. It was like the mental breakdown I had last Thursday was actually a good thing, I feel like we're easing towards the end of everything and I'm somewhat calm about it. We'll see about Monday afternoon tho... My outlook on all of this may change once I leave her office. ::sigh:: Here's to better days.
Tisha bitched at 3:14 PM | |
I LOVE SPRING!
Tisha bitched at 1:22 PM | |